A dance of intuition, grace, and joy
When I was 12, my family moved from a small town to a big city. I was enrolled in an an inner city secondary school and on the first day, even before registration, I saw a child being beaten up and I felt intimidated. My new school was also very segregated (and a classmate told me)as a multiple heritage person I thought I didn’t belong anywhere.
I began trying hide my true self to survive and be accepted, and then luck struck: the most popular girls in my year took me under their wing. But actually, it wasn’t a space I felt good in, because there was almost always someone within the group being pushed out, and week to week I felt anxious about if I would be next.
To survive, I decided that rather than be me, I would watch how the others behaved and reference from then. I made jokes that weren’t mine, I dressed in a style that wasn’t mine, and that culminated in this constant anxious feeling that led to physical illness. When I took a week off, I began to feel better: I even started to dress in the way I like to dress again, but when I came back, it finally happened it to me… they had decided to push me out of the group this time.
The funny thing was, rather than that being my lowest moment as I had feared, I felt relief because I realised that I hadn’t been being me and that it was making me really unhappy, because I didn’t feel free.
Now, without these ‘friends’, I could be me again and through that experience, I realised I had an opportunity to carve out who I really wanted to be instead of pretending to be who I thought I should be.
In that time, I signed up for subjects I really wanted to do: like dance for the first time ever, and I just began to pour my heart into my creativity. As a result, I started to connect to this joy of who I was outside of being accepted, and as I did that I began to form friendships based on who I really was and to be myself. I realised that it is me, not other people who bring the best out of me and that it is doing what I love that helps me find myself.
By choosing how I want to live and doing the things that bring me joy, I connected to my heart and attracted like minded people to me. I realised I get to decide on the life I want to live and how I want to live it and so the journey began…
It was not a straightforward one… there were many moments when I forgot this innate wisdom, or gave away my power and had to work hard to remember my heart… but all of these twists and turns mean I am uniquely placed to support creatives (like you!) to come back home to themselves and their unique gifts and talents.
As a coach, I will support you to move through life on your terms… to find your healthy boundaries, to connect to what lights you up and the gifts that are you uniquely yours.
My alchemy and embodiment coaching combines the discipline of dance, the ancient wisdom of alchemy, and the healing power of embodiment practices. Everything I deliver is in service of women, non-binary people and anyone who has ever felt the pain of being othered in your creativity.
My calling is creating electric moments where your purpose ignites, and in our spaces together, your creativity knows no bounds.↓